Five Years Later

For five years I've been getting the domain renewal reminders in my inbox and I delete the email with the thought that I'll deal with my blog later.

Later was five years, apparently.

Life before COVID lock down seems like a dream. Were we really that carefree and happy?

Yes.

Since my first encounter with COVID Alpha, my life has turned upside down. Not only have I had the virus so many times that I have stopped counting, but I have gained over 100 lbs. Due to COVID infections, a lock down, and perimenopause symptoms, my body has been on a topsy-turvy roller coaster. And, still is.

Mentally, I have taken good care of myself--my meds are working well and I found a new therapist who challenges me to become a better person. In fact, my OCD has improved so much that I'm doing things I never thought I'd do again!!

But, I can't look at myself in pictures. I don't recognize the face looking back at me.

I exercise.

I eat the same as I always have.

I still gain weight.

And, yet, I managed to survive five years of being a wife and mom and teacher after a worldwide pandemic.

That, there, is bravery.

I wish I could recognize it.